prose: through the looking glass

i have given some thought of introducing, and describing myself.

but how do we view ourselves? can we be honest in describing ourselves? there are a lot of things that we hate about ourselves that some times we choose to see only what we want to see. and in every flaw, we'll try to paint a silver lining to it. well, at least i did.

sometimes i am confused of what i am with what i want to be. which is more important?
people say love yourself, never change. but what if the things you call your attributes are on the negative side? and, if attributes are subjective, for example, your looks, your social behaviour, your idiosyncracies, your pet peeves, do we really have to bother to change at all? what if what is negative and what is positive is also subjective? they say that some man's food is another man's poison.

how do we differentiate with what people expect of you with what you want? if your desire is to be respected and loved by the society, do you not have to conform to what is acceptable in society?

i would say that the way the society (or 'those people around you') views an individual is also a basis in which one views himself. besides, we need reassurances.

that is why we need mirrors.
have you tried combing your hair without a mirror?
it is not the mirror, however, that combs your hair. it is you. the mirror only serves to reflect you.

so i brushed aside the idea of introducing myself. let my mirrors do it.